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i want some ‘Sulfur Hexafluoride’

Finally Break

So today i woke up at 5:40am. like usual -.-
then i went to starbucks with my friends before school.
White Chocolate Mocha.
Omg i was seriously shaking in my Lit class. talking 24/7
then.. we had a half day cause its holiday schedule.
So afterwards i was suppose to go to quicklys, but im also
going to a pot luck, so i had to go buy food. So i had to skip
out on quicklys, and went to safeway and got the food.
afterwards we got to elaines house where every started meeting up.
Blahblahblah. watched District 9. Hung out. Ate food. It was fun (:
haha i think i got a lot of exercise. i got to run on the treadmill while playing guitar.
idk theres a bunch of random stuff that happened today.

Anyways tomorrows thanks giving guys soo..
HAPPY THANKS GIVING!!

You give me hope

Yet.. your my loss.

so i lied. i never got the haircut.
haha. but still i had funn messing up my hair.

i went to go get a haircut since people have told me i’ve needed one.
so i strolled inside and I said: “surprise me.”

Theres got to be a change.

Today will be different.
Lets see what we can make of it.
You ready?

Cause this morning i woke up.
And i just didnt want to go to school. to get up..
I just wanted to go into an eternal slumber.
To stay in my warm bed.
Whats the point.
Im not sure why god put me here.
Not sure what im going to do.
What im going to accomplish.
Im feeling really dizzy, tired, and sore.

-edit-
So its basically the end of the day.
I didnt do anything different.
Didnt change anything.
Same old same old.
Except.
I lost a part of myself.

With You

Watching those starts tonight.
I realized that we were watching
the same stars in the sky..
Suddenly, i wasnt alone.

“ Keep on asking and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking and you will find. Keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives. Everyone who seeks finds, and to everyone who knocks the door will be opened.

— Matthew 7:7-8

Dont judge.

I see when people look at my wrist.
that one bold scar that stands out.
Then look away, pretending not to see it.
But i saw you staring at it :[
To make things clear..
i do not cut myself. (I fell from ice skating.)
I am not depressed.
I am drug free. No drinking no smoking no nothing.
I am not antisocial.

I love making people laugh&smile.
I love being with my friends& meeting new people
I am just a super clumsy weird person.
I would love to become a voice over.
I dress the way i feel comfortable, not to represent.
I feel pretty shy&awkward with new people, until i know them more.
Dont look at me, and form your own opinions.
Get to know me.

Night

Its 9:30pm Just came back inside. its so cold outside but the cold air feels so nice when it chills your face. Just skating outside with my friend for hours. Eating creamcheese w/ toast. Yum. When we get better, we’ll be headed toward starbucks, drinking hot mocha on cold nights. now that would be awesome.

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TWLOHA

To write Love on her arms.
I am usually anti ink.
But this year, love is written all over my arm,
leaving no space empty.
Love. Its amazing.
♥

Sometimes, i just have the urge to scream ♥ I LOVE YOU ♥ at the top of my lungs, on the rooftops, letting everyone know that i do.

The Leap Of Faith

Christopher

Danny

James

Kumho (Kathy)

me

This years summer retreat. The Leap Of Faith. Was an example of your faith in god. You put on your gear. You climb up a shaky wooden pole. 35 feet into the air. From there you pull yourself onto the tiny platform. Pull the wires closer to yourself. Then jump out into the air. The hard ground below. The people watching from down below look so far. The cold metal bar in front of you. Without hesitation i jumped. i missed.

“ But those who trust in the lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.

— Isaiah 10:31

My Escape to Music

When my family argues.
I toss on my headphones and
blast the music until it hurts my ears.
But its better than hearing the argument.
How they try to get me into it. Asking for my opinion.
Then using it against me for whatever they can grasp.
When I Block them out. They cant get in.
I dont hear anything they say & I like it that way.
I dont want to hear the crap their saying.
I dont need all that. They’re not arguments about anything.
Its just over stupid pointless things that dont matter.
Things that i have nothing to do with
They get pissed at me for their mistakes.
That dont even make a difference to anything.
Yet i dont need that.

Tomorrow will be the same.
Like every other day.
Each time you have a stupid argument.
Over who didnt throw away an empty bag of chips.
How my brother got sick.
How no one put away the papers.
How i started playing guitar.
Really guys? These arguments are over nothing.
If it was something more serious i’d understand.
But its pointless.
Its useless.
I’ll be away in my own world.
Call me when your done.
Cause im gone on my escape.

You yelled out my name as i walked away into the crowd

I never thought i’d ever do something like this.
But really.. after taking something of mine, having me run after you, asking you to stop repeatedly, i wasnt smiling. You could tell i was being serious, not only that, i SAID i was being serious. asked you to stop. i just kept asking to give back what was mine. back to me.
I ran back to my open locker, got my things. and ran back over to you.
I told you to give my things back. i asked over and over again countless times. You just told me that you no longer had it. You just couldnt stop joking around could you? I asked so many times its unbelievable. It got old & i got tired of your crap so i left. as i walked away into the crowd. i heard you crying out my name. I didnt turn around. you can keep my things. i dont need to deal with that.
Theres a time to be serious. and a time to joke around, and being able to know when to stop.